There are several definitions for the word breakdown. The definition which best helps me describe the process I am going through is this one:
A failure of a relationship or system.
Some of the synonyms used to describe a breakdown are:
Failure, collapse, disintegration, nervous breakdown.
Now most people, when they hear the word breakdown usually associate the word with a negative event.
And some people may think when they first start reading this that I may be on the verge of a “nervous breakdown”, I’d like to let you know that I am far from it.
But I am going through a breakdown and I do welcome the process. You may be a little confused, let me explain.
I have up to this point in my life been behaving a certain way. These behaviours have created habits which govern my life. It’s not just me, everyone has habits, it’s kind of how our brain works. How we’re able to function on a daily basis.
I’ll ask you to think of a habit you have and ask yourself why you have this habit? Where did it originate from? What behaviours did you perform repeatedly to acquire this habit? Is this habit one that is advantageous to have, meaning does this habit help you progress at whatever it is that you want or do on a daily basis, or does it hinder your efforts? If it does hinder your efforts are you aware of this? And if you are aware of this what are you doing to stop that habit? Do you want to stop that habit?
I am going through a process right now. The behaviours of my past have created habits in my life. Habits that up until this point have served me well. But they are not working for me anymore. Since September 27th of last year I have been creating new behaviors, repeatedly to create new habits. But as much as I want to move forward I still cling (just barely though) to the habits of my past, and I am growing tired of this. I welcome a breakdown because what it means to me is the failure, collapse, or disintegration of my old habits. The failure of the relationship I had with my mind, the failure of the old system or blueprint I have been operating from. I am beginning to see the world for what it really is, and all the incredible opportunities it has to offer.
This total “breakdown” of my old habits means that the new behaviours that I have been doing consistently since day one of the MKMMA course are creating new habits, replacing the old ones, permanently. This is the only way an old habit or habits can be replaced.
Haanel states something in Part 20 of the Master Keys which I thought relates to what I am going through:
“To become inspired means to get out of the beaten path, out of the rut, because extraordinary results require extraordinary means. When we come into the recognition of the Unity of all things and that the source of all power is within, we tap the source of inspiration.”
So I bid my old habits farewell and give gratitude for where they have brought me, and I welcome the new habits I have and continue to create for I know what they bring to me.
There’s a song that’s been playing in my head for the past few weeks, which kind of relates to what I’m going through.
“I hope this old train brakes down, then I could take a walk around, and see what there is to see…”
Enjoy. It’s one of my favorites.