It’s funny how sometimes when you learn something new you’re so eager to apply it, mixed in with a little bit of fear, and for the first little bit you end up tripping all over yourself. That’s how the MKMMA course has made me feel like from day one. But I do my best, and for the most part I enjoy it. I know I have a choice, I can choose to let my old habits get the best of me and dwell on the negative, or think about why I acted the way I did, realize that I’ve made a choice based on my old habits, celebrate the fact that I made this realization, and make a conscious effort to apply what I’m learning to behave differently the next time.
Haanel states in Part Ten of The Master Key: ” The ordinary man, who has no definite knowledge of cause and effect, is governed by his feelings or emotions.” I am now working on being governed by constructive thoughts and using those feelings or emotions to charge those thoughts to create the belief necessary to take action to get the results I desire. It may take several attempts, I may silently curse myself when I slip up… nope, don’t do that anymore, I just smile, sometimes chuckle and shake my head and start over. It’s a process as Og mentions,”… I will consider each day’s effort as but one blow against a mighty oak. The first blow may cause not a tremor in the wood, nor the second, nor the third. Each blow, of itself, may be trifling, and seem of no consequence. Yet from childish swipes the oak will eventually tumble. So it will be with my efforts of today.”
A couple of things that I can celebrate about this week:
- One of my goals to achieve one of my pivotal needs has been accomplished. Funny thing was that I realized that this goal that I have been trying to achieve I’ve been doing for a very long time, I just haven’t been applying it to impact me in a positive way consistently. This was a very humbling discovery for me.
- Something that I’ve learned about myself that is directly related to Og’s quote above and I rediscovered it thanks to an observation my mother made about my son. Something I have done often and never quite looked at it as a good quality until recently. My family and I went to Great Wolf Lodge this past week. Both of the Grandmothers came with us. My son was in the wave pool at one point and my mother and I were watching from a short distance. She turned to me and said, ” You know, it’s amazing how much more he’s enjoying the water park compared to last year”… she was referring to the fact that he wouldn’t go near any of the water features there except the wave pool and the kids wading pool area. This year he was into just about everything. She continued to say ” …he’ll do things when he’s ready to do them.” She turned to me and said, ” do you know who else was like that? … You.” I thought about that for the rest of the night. It wasn’t just a flick of the switch and ‘BAM’ it just happened. It was a progression. All throughout this past year he conditioned himself whether it was in the bath tub at home or in the public pool at the community center. He slowly but deliberately with persistence kept pushing himself, testing his own limits and breaking through those barriers. It was challenging for my wife and I not to push him, it was a challenge for him to move forward, but it is quite amazing to witness a child overcome any obstacle without being pushed to do it. We continually offer him guidance and support that help him understand the choices that he has, but after he has the facts or information, he makes the decision. And more often than not he makes the positive, constructive choices.
I am very proud of my son and very grateful to have him remind me daily through his actions that eventually even if it is only one step at time with persistence I will succeed!