Monthly Archives: November 2015

Week 9 MKMMA – Still Making Progress!

So as I write this I am a little confused, overwhelmed, frustrated, calm, relaxed and happy, it’s quite the mix. Makes it hard to focus sometimes. I’ve been told to trust the process, I keep at the exercises and assignments wanting so desperately for everything to kick in, kind of like the flick of a light switch, but right now I feel more like a car well overdue for service just not firing on all cylinders. Part of me thinks “what’s going on, why is it not working properly?” But then what is “properly”? If I’ve never been running smoothly for a very long time how am I to know what that should feel like?

One thing that I have learned is that repetition is the mother of skill, having things posted in areas of the house to serve as triggers to repeatedly remind me of what I want to do helps reinforce the repetition required in forming new habits. If someone were to come and visit they might think that I suffer from some form of amnesia, but then I guess I sort of am. Trying to find or rediscover my true bliss or definite purpose in life, reconnect with myself, or rediscover something long forgotten kind of seems that way sometimes, again something that I am learning is part of the process…

But the other important part in creating something new is the ability to visualize it. Haanel states in Part Seven of the Master Keys that “Visualization is the process of making mental images, and the image is the mold or model which will serve as the pattern from which your future will emerge.” My ability to do this has been less than successful. Nothing consistent, just little bits here and there…

And yet as my challenges of visualization have been just that… challenging, I know that things are getting better because I don’t dwell on negative things as long as I used to anymore, where it used to be hours or days, it’s only moments, seconds, sometimes minutes. This was one of my worst habits.

Two things that I do remind myself of constantly come from two of the many people that have been a great help to me over the past nine weeks in this course for which I am very thankful for. The first one is from Mark,

“…Be the observer and evaluate, without judgment, the progress you are making. It gets down for all of us… to one simple thing. Do you believe, can you see you are growing? Implanting and growing new habits in your mind alters behavior and the results we desire always follow behavioral shifts. Keep implementing and reinforcing new thought habits and abstain from measuring results…”

The second is from Patty

“… Just keep asking yourself: What do I want? How will it feel? What will it look like when I have it?

I continue to dig in, do my best, trust the process, and enjoy the journey.

Week 8 MKMMA – You want me to do What?!

So, eight weeks ago if you told me to write out what I want in life, so I could achieve it, keep it to 300 to 400 words and read it three times a day, and tell me I may have to revise it several times to get everything just right, I might say “Alright… makes sense… you make a list for grocery shopping so you remember everything you want… I’ll give it a shot.”

Now, if you told me that I had to read two different books daily, one of them three times a day, throw in a couple essays, have cue cards with affirmations to read aloud three times a day, have my full length DMP (Definite Major Purpose or what I want in life) handy to read one or two times a day and a condensed version of it readily available to read one or two times a day or whenever I need it, shapes and colours placed in strategic places for me to see and read, a poster with everything on it that I wish… no, no, not wishwant to achieve, there’s a big difference between wishing and wanting… big difference. A recording of my DMP to listen to while I’m driving to work, working out, or before I go to sleep, and also to sit and think for fifteen minutes every night to gain control of my mind and the thoughts that go through it.

Oh yeah, and set up a blog, read other people’s blog posts, comment and share them, write and publish my own once a week, attend a webinar every Sunday with optional webinars to attend during the week, as well as logging onto a website almost daily to see how the other members of the course are progressing, see how they’re doing, share how I’m doing and help each other out.. kind of like a big study group…

If you told me eight weeks ago before I started the course… if everything I just described above, I’ve covered almost everything… oh hang on… yes, how could I forget… setting up a twitter account and tweeting, if all of this was listed just above the place where it says “click here to confirm your registration for this course”, I probably would have said, “Hmmm, that’s interesting… I’m going to go ahead and do a bit more research before I decide to move forward with this one… while inside my head a voice would have been screaming, “What are you, nuts?! What are you going to do, take a leave from work, and while you’re at it tell your family you won’t be seeing much of them for the next six months?! HO LEEEE Moses where do you think you’re going to find the time?”

But as I’m sitting in the kitchen writing this now, listening to my son laugh hysterically at his mom and our kitten interacting with each other I know that time is not an issue. In fact I have come to a realization through the experiences from this MKMMA course that it’s not how many hours I devote towards doing something, it’s the quality, what I decide to do with the time I have with my wife, my kids, my friends, work, this course that matters the most.

Another thing that comes to mind is reminders. Myself as well as many other people are repeatedly reminded, daily, like a 2×4 across the back of the head of how bad things are and how bad they’re going to get. So why can’t I just take a bigger 2×4… let’s say a 2×4 with all the daily exercises I have to do… no, no… choose to do… there’s a big difference between have to do and choose to do… are you starting to see a pattern here? So I take this 2×4 and smack myself  across the front of my head (the frontal lobe is there, it’s where good things happen when effectively stimulated) daily with it so I continue to remind myself of how much more important it is to see how good things are and how much better they’re going to get.

I accept that there are a lot of negative things going on in the world today, but I never dwell on them. I accept it for what it is and move on with enjoying my life, and the abundance of good things that continually happen in the world today. I have much to be grateful for.

Week 7 MKMMA – Choices

In life, we always have a choice. This week I chose to enjoy every day, every hour, every second.

On Monday, I took my daughter to the playground to enjoy this above average weather we’ve been having for November. The quality time we spent together was priceless.

In the evening was my son’s dance recital. Someone was able to stay late for me at work so I could see my son’s performance before my night shift. I was grateful for the favor. He’s growing quickly as all children do and I want to enjoy every moment of his life.

On Tuesday, my wife and I brought our daughter to Sunnybrook hospital down in the city for her developmental check up. The staff were delighted to see her. I am grateful for all the staff there that devote their time and genuinely care. They are truly amazing.

On Wednesday, my wife, daughter and I went to my son’s school for the remembrance day assembly. The kids put on a beautiful performance to honour all those who served for their country.

In the afternoon, we went to go and pick up some branches from pine trees off the side of the road that had been cut down for future development. We plan to use the branches for decorating the exterior of the house for the Christmas season. I’m looking forward to seeing what my wife will create with that wonderful imagination of hers. I know it will look beautiful.

Today I got to pick up my son from the bus stop after school. We enjoyed the walk home together, we always make each other laugh, he’s almost five and full of life, it’s contagious.

We enjoyed a movie as a family while eating dinner tonight. Watching the kids dance to the music in the movie is priceless. Thier carefree attitude makes for some of the best dance moves. They have so much energy. I love it.

Now I could have mentioned all the less positive things that happened over the week, but why?

This week I chose to do something different. I chose to let go of all the negativity, and continually reflect and embrace all the great things that happened. I am very grateful for the choice that I made.

 

Week 6 MKMMA – Back to the Drawing Board

Week 6 and I’ve had to redo my Definite Major Purpose. And here I am sitting at the kitchen table sitting with my extended family after dinner working on my blog so I can get it published before I go to sleep. I’ve actually had a wonderful night, and a wonderful week.

I’ll admit that it was frustrating and I almost felt like not continuing at one point. But it was the slap in the face I needed. I took a good hard look at what I had written out, reviewed the definitions of the personal pivotal needs and my goals.

It was all there in front of me, I had to do some digging, rearranging, get some guidance from my guide, and I know I am on the right path now. Although I am still piecing together the last parts of my DMP, it resonates with me, it makes more sense. I thought that this would be a major setback for me, and even though I’m a little behind schedule with some of the assignments, everything is starting to come together all at once, it feels good. I’m not really in a panic to get things done, I know that they’ll get done. There is a momentum building up inside of me that just keeps pushing me forward.

I’ve been looking at life a certain way and not seeing what I want, I had to take a step back and look at it differently. I am happy that I took the week to reflect and refocus. Now it’s time for me to step forward.